If there was a way to completely forget the past 7 days, I would. This week has been a crazy rollercoaster that shows no signs of stopping. Everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and is currently in the works of being stitched back together in the hope that next week is a little brighter.
Monday during rehearsal for our fall musical, our lead made an announcement. He was stepping down a week before opening night and had asked a kid from another school to come in and take his place. The reason he did this is because he had yet to fully learn his lines and music. We spent hours upon hours practicing and going over them with him but it was too much for him to handle. The truth is, this kid is a great actor. He was perfect for the part, but he just couldn’t do it.
We are all upset about losing our original lead, because we had gotten used to his version of the character, but the new guy being brought in is fully prepared to perform. He is a great singer, even if his basic acting skills need some toning. All in all, he fits in greatly with the cast and the chemistry we share on stage is enough to push us through next week.
Not only has the drama department had drama, but so has my personal life. My emotions have been everywhere this week. From stress due to a huge project due to losing my voice a week before the musical. So many things have been running through my mind that haven’t been relevant in so long. There are people I see everyday that I have a bad past with that I never received closer from. It takes so much out of me not to say something, even though I know it’s a bad idea. I just let the regret and guilt gnaw at my insides every time our eyes meet. I wonder when I’ll ever be able to walk past them and not feel anything. I pray for that day. Maybe that will be tomorrow, or next week. Maybe in five years. All I know is that I need to keep looking ahead because there are better things to come.